We are doing just fine. The boys are in peds and we are hoping they will come home soon. Both just hit the 7lb mark and eat like champs. As soon as the DR is pleased that they can recover from their occasional desaturations then they will come home to us.
I suppose one of the benefits (and there aren’t many) to having babies in the hospital is a chance to take notice of the little things. Since the babies were born, I have noticed an increase in lability (mostly crying) in my moods. The crying isn’t always related to sadness. I cry when the Down’s Syndrome guy on tv is interviewed, the SPCA commercial with the Sarah McLaughlin song has me in tears in the first 10 seconds and I cry when someone told me I’m a devoted mother.
This is not really me (except for the SPCA commercial). Last week, while driving to the hospital to see the babies, I accidentally hit a pheasant and cried for 25 minutes. I looked up the DSM IV criteria for post partum depression and only had 2 symptoms but that was enough for me. I saw a psychiatrist and got put on effexor, that day.
I don’t need to be a distraught Mom to twins. I also didn’t realize that mothers of multiples were 50% more likely to have PPD. The lesson to this story is listen to your symptoms and ask for help if you need them. Many people told me that my crying was totally symptomatic of new mothers and it would go away with time. It is very uncharacteristic and I got help as soon as I realized that after 3 weeks, it wasn’t just a passing phase.
I’m so glad I did. I feel so much better. If this happens to you or someone you love, don’t wait, get seen.